I'm not sure that many of you know this, but I am ridiculously happy right now. God has given me such joy that I sometimes can't remember life not being this good, all the time. Well, more correctly, it probably has been, and I've been too blind to see it.
Sure, I'm making very little money. Sure, I don't see people my own age very much. Sure, I actually only work about 20 hours a week right now, anybody would be happy with that.
I LOVE being a nanny. I have truly grown to love these children (from several families), and they teach me so much about how to love. I really enjoy being with these kids in their home, and also working with their parents. It saddens me to think that I really won't be able to nanny after starting my own family. There are some hard days, but I never leave thinking about how horrible of a day it was. I just think about how I get another try tomorrow. I'm not going to run off and work for a daycare - I don't think I'm cut out for it - or become an elementary ed teacher. I like the one-on-one and knowing the family dynamic. I'm learning so much right now. I'm not worried about the future, because I can feel deep in my soul that THIS is where God wants me, and that's all that matters.
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